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June 2009 
someday I will write
Posted on Jun 21st, 2009
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nomoss
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Someday I will write about what my life has become at present. But I will need more time than I now have.
Access: PublicThe mind makes a movie
Posted on Jun 28th, 2008
by nomoss
nomoss
A. was watching a movie. I was standing in the middle of the room noticing the movie on the tv to my right, and also looking out the window on the left. Out the window, there was a tree and a pink-flowered hollyhock near a round, light green-leafed bush against a gray-blue sky. To my right, on the tv, there was a man hitting another man with his fist and some kind of pounding music in the background. My question was, 'Why watch a movie when you're living in one?'
I prefer the beautiful garden window movie to the violent tv movie, but both can be mesmerizing. When the mind watches a movie, it wants to know what will happen next. It wants to keep the parts it knows. That's probably why I preferred the tree and hollyhock movie over the tv movie. It didn't have anything to do with "wanting to be more peaceful" because the mind isn't really that peaceful. The mind likes all these distractions more than it wants peace.
Sometimes, of course, it doesn't matter what sort of movie the mind is making. Sometimes I am so "in the moment", as they say, that there isn't "anyone" to watch the movie my mind is making. That happens sometimes when I am working and I am happy.
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Cycles of life and now: my first entry
Posted on Jun 27th, 2008
by nomoss
nomoss
This is my first entry. I've just joined and I hope this is an online community I will enjoy because I will have something to share. I don't do yoga. I do qi gong. I like to garden but it's not a good time for gardening right now because I am having to step in and move my elderly parents into assisted living, dealing with a dysfunctional family that I left behind me when I moved away some 25 years ago.
It's a cycle. Things change and yet some things are stuck. The pattern of aging is interwoven with my parents' dysfunctional behavior like effects from a strange tumor that has been residing in their thinking all these years. So to deal with that now, my garden plots are weedy because I haven't had time to work them.
Anyhow, there are these challenges in my life now. But they are the kind of challenges that produce personal changes, much more concrete than thinking about political action and world peace in the abstract. The mind learns better from concrete daily living experiences than from intellectual stuff.
I don't know what will happen even though I am having to map out a detailed plan of action. I have to stop along the way and notice what I think and feel about these people. I use Byron Katie's "four questions" to help. I have to step back and witness myself and the changes this challenge is taking me through.
There are things I'd rather be doing than helping my parents move and sell their house, I think. But maybe I'd rather do them at a different time because right now this is what I am doing.
It's a cycle. Things change and yet some things are stuck. The pattern of aging is interwoven with my parents' dysfunctional behavior like effects from a strange tumor that has been residing in their thinking all these years. So to deal with that now, my garden plots are weedy because I haven't had time to work them.
Anyhow, there are these challenges in my life now. But they are the kind of challenges that produce personal changes, much more concrete than thinking about political action and world peace in the abstract. The mind learns better from concrete daily living experiences than from intellectual stuff.
I don't know what will happen even though I am having to map out a detailed plan of action. I have to stop along the way and notice what I think and feel about these people. I use Byron Katie's "four questions" to help. I have to step back and witness myself and the changes this challenge is taking me through.
There are things I'd rather be doing than helping my parents move and sell their house, I think. But maybe I'd rather do them at a different time because right now this is what I am doing.
